The first day of my Couch to 5K running plan, I loaded up a song list on my husband’s iPod and headed out the door. The songs were set to play at random, and I had to chuckle at the first song that played.
“This might hurt
It’s not safe
But I know that I’ve got to make a change … ”
— Matthew West, The Motions
(You can listen to the whole song here or click the link in the video box at the end.)
I can hardly think that song was “random.” I think God has a serious sense of humor.
This might hurt: Learning to run caused some physical pain with sore muscles and stiff joints. (Although, not as much as I anticipated, I think due to how slowly the running plan starts out.)
It’s not safe: It felt incredibly awkward to clumsily jog around my neighborhood for one minute at a time, trying to find good stride and rhythm. There was no guarantee I would finish the program, or even the first day.
But I know that I’ve got to make a change: I know that I need to make some changes to improve my physical health.
There is something more about this running thing and this song, though. I first heard the song about a year ago. I think it could be my theme song for what I am repeatedly learning in my life for the past two years or so.
I don’t want to go through the motions.
I don’t want to just be a good Christian who knows all the answers, lives a nice life and adds knowledge to my mind.
I don’t want to be a wife that lets my marriage become a formality, just an agreement to tolerate each other.
I don’t want to be a mom that let’s life fly by without enjoying my kids at each stage they are in.
I want to really live. And I’m learning that it really is the little things I do each day in my relationship with God and my family that matters most.
To pursue God, listen for His voice and act when He speaks.
To be intentional to spend time with my husband, respecting his leading in our family and appreciating his desire to provide for and protect our family.
I want to enjoy moments with my kids being mindful of how quickly they grow and change.
I used to think that I had to do something huge or risky or dramatic to avoid “going through the motions.” I’m finding the opposite is true. It’s those little things I do each day — even as small as an attitude shift — that determine whether this will be a day of just surviving or intentionally living.